Vicky Pattison ‘drowning in pain and grief’ after best friend’s death

Vicky Pattison has told fans she’s “overwhelmed” with pain and grief following the death of her best friend, Paul Burns.

The former Queen of the Jungle paid a beautiful and heartbreaking tribute to Paul on Monday, after he passed away at the age of just 37.

Returning to Instagram overnight, she spoke about “drowning” in emotions as she struggles to process her loss.

Vicky, 30, said: “Grief is like an ocean, it comes in waves, ebbing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm and sometimes it is overwhelming. All we can do is learn to swim.

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“That’s how I feel now – overwhelmed and like I’m drowning in my own pain and grief. I’m not ready to accept the fact that we won’t laugh together again. I am not ready to believe you’re gone.

“The injustice of all of this is too much to bear and there’s nothing I wouldn’t give to be able to hear your voice again.

“We may have loved you Paul, but God loved you a lot more.

“I will think of you everyday my friend.”

Former Geordie Shore star Vicky posted her message with a string of photos showing herself and Paul on nights out.

Vicky had posted a lengthy Instagram tribute to Paul on Monday, saying: “I don’t know what to post. I don’t know what to say. But this seemed fitting.

“Paul, you are my best friend, my oldest friend and one of the most amazing people in the world. My heart is broken. I know I will never get over losing you and this still doesn’t feel real- I’m desperately just waiting for the moment I wake up from this nightmare.”

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Vicky said she was thankful to have spent an evening with Paul and their friends before his death.

“The only solace I can take from this is that I spent your last night with you and all of our best friends and you knew how much we loved you. How important you were to us and how you kept us together as a group,” she said.

“I never met a more selfless person. Some of the best moments of my life I shared with you and the lasses. I do not want to accept that you won’t be at my wedding.

“The world will forever be less bright without you in it. But I suppose you were just too special. You were too good for us Paul and I hope they look after you in heaven. Show them how it’s done, boot off Burns.”

I don’t know what to post. I don’t know what to say. But this seemed fitting. @mrpaulburns1 you are my best friend, my oldest friend and one of the most amazing people in the world. My heart is broken. I know I will never get over losing you and this still doesn’t feel real- I’m desperately just waiting for the moment I wake up from this nightmare. The only solace I can take from this is that I spent your lastnight with you and all of our best friends and you knew how much we loved you. How important you were to us and how you kept us together as a group. I never met a more selfless person. Some of the best moments of my life I shared with you and the lasses. I do not want to accept that you won’t be at my wedding. The world will forever be less bright without you in it. But I suppose you were just too special. You were too good for us Paul and I hope they look after you in heaven. Show them how it’s done boot off burns.

A post shared by Vicky Pattison (@vickypattison) on Jun 4, 2018 at 5:02am PDT

Paul’s cause of death has not been publicly disclosed.

Just two days ago, Vicky had shared a photo to Instagram showing her celebrating Paul’s birthday on a night out, adding the caption: “Celebrating this amazing ones birthday a little bit late… love you forever, Paul.”

https://www.instagram.com/p/Bjf3sHWgndm/?hl=en&taken-by=vickypattison

Other stars have also paid tribute including Geordie Shore’s Charlotte Crosby, who tweeted a broken heart emoji with the words: “RIP PB.”

RIP PB 💔

— Charlotte Crosby (@Charlottegshore) June 3, 2018

Charlotte added a lengthier tribute on Instagram, alongside pictures of herself with Paul.

She wrote: “Words cannot describe the pain this weekend has brought 💔 It still doesn’t feel real. I don’t want it to be real. I am so, so, so happy to be able to of shared some amazing memories with you 💕 that I will never ever forget. Without you Newcastle has lost its sparkle. My thoughts are with All of Paul’s family and best friends 💔😞. RIP Paul burns….love you. We’ll never ever forget.”

Fellow Geordie Shore star Kyle Christie shared photos of himself and Paul alongside the message: “I’ll always remember my first night out in town where you took me under your wing and made sure I was well looked after in night life trade that was 10 years ago.

“Heaven has definitely got one hell of a VIP up there with you sorting it out love you brother till we meet again!”

I’ll always remember my first night out in town where you took me under your wing and made sure I was well looked after in night life trade that was 10 years ago. Heaven has definitely got one hell of a vip up there with you sorting it out love you brother till we meet again!❤️ pic.twitter.com/oV5clvZpjB

— Kyle Christie ☠️ (@KyleCGShore) June 3, 2018

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