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Vicky Pattison reveals she’s sad, lonely and feels like a fraud

She is worried that she is "contributing" to the issues that social media can create

Vicky Pattison feels “lonely” and “down” due to trying to portray a perfect life on Instagram.

The 31-year-old reality star explained how she felt like a “fraud” after being thanked by women for being herself on social media even though she often posts “glossy, filtered” pictures which portray the image of a “perfect life”.

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I don’t even know how to start this post. But I think honesty is probably the best place. So here goes, I feel sad. I bet I know what you’re thinking: why are you putting this on Instagram and not telling your friends?! Or your family?! Or someone who can help?! The answer is not straight forward so bare with me. This week no less than 5 lovely women have approached me in various places & thanked me for being myself on social media- thanked me for being real & an ‘inspiration.’ Well I looked through my feed & I didn’t feel very inspirational at all. I felt like a fraud, like someone who is contributing to the problem that social media is creating in our society rather than someone who is fighting to be part of the solution. Glossy, filtered pics, glamorous locations, bikini shots, ads & an overall aesthetic of a perfect life stare back at me & there are no signs of the girl in this picture. I’m trying not to beat myself up and rationalise that everyone wants to put their best foot forward & show how fab their life is on social media, but the fact is it’s not good enough. I want to project positivity, love, kindness & most of all honesty. Too many people are trying to keep up with lifestyles on Instagram that don’t exist. We are punishing ourselves because we aren’t these people & they aren’t even these fucking people? It’s all for the ‘gram! So baring that in mind- this is me: I have a chest infection that I haven’t been able to shake and it’s making me cranky, I’m lonely, I’ve gained weight recently & it’s getting me down no matter how much I pretend I’m ok with it, I’m going to the baftas for the first time on Sunday & I’m so nervous that I won’t fit in or look as good as everyone else I’m losing sleep over it, & I went and had this facial to boost my confidence and now my face is sore & red, I’m overwhelmed in the world I’m in, i ate Doritos last night in my sleep (yes I sleep eat) I miss my mam, i’m sick of living out of a suitcase, I’m drowning in these thoughts and I don’t feel inspirational. My point is, maybe if we’re more honest, we all won’t feel so alone. THANKYOU for listening and I hope you’re a little less hard on yourselves today for it.

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Sharing a no-make up selfie, she wrote: “I felt like a fraud, like someone who is contributing to the problem that social media is creating in our society rather than someone who is fighting to be part of the solution.

“Glossy, filtered pics, glamorous locations, bikini shots, ads, and an overall aesthetic of a perfect life stare back at me and there are no signs of the girl in this picture.”

Vicky feels she is “contributing” to the problems social media can cause (Credit: Instagram/@vickypattison)

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The former Geordie Shore star went on to explain that she wants to show a truthful version of herself and admitted that in reality she’s “lonely”, has “gained weight”, and is “losing sleep” over the thought of attending the BAFTA Television Awards for the first time this weekend.

She said: “We are punishing ourselves because we aren’t these people and they aren’t even these [bleep] people?

“It’s all for the ‘gram!

“So baring that in mind – this is me: I have a chest infection that I haven’t been able to shake and it’s making me cranky.

Vicky starred on Geordie Shore (Credit: MTV)

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“I’m lonely, I’ve gained weight recently and it’s getting me down no matter how much I pretend I’m okay with it.

“I’m going to the BAFTAs for the first time on Sunday and I’m so nervous that I won’t fit in or look as good as everyone else [that] I’m losing sleep over it.

“[I] miss my mam, I’m sick of living out of a suitcase, I’m drowning in these thoughts and I don’t feel inspirational.”

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