Phillip Schofield admits he knew he was gay when he got married

This Morning presenter describes his actions as naive

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Television presenter Phillip Schofield contemplated taking his own life whilst keeping his sexuality a secret.

The 57-year-old came out as gay earlier this week, and has now said he was taken to “the darkest of places” while keeping his sexuality hidden from the world, as he hints he may have tried to end his own life if he didn’t have the support of his wife Stephanie Lowe and their two daughters.

He said: “There is no doubt living with this kind of secret can take people to the darkest of places.

“And there is no question for me it got very dark, because it felt hopeless. There is no question, in those moments, when I couldn’t see a way forward, it was Steph and my girls – through their strength – who hauled me back.

“But I understand completely why so many men and women in this country get to the point of suicide.

“I had Steph and I had my girls and I don’t think I could have left them like that. But if I hadn’t have had their support, then who knows?”

Phil has praised wife Steph for her support (Credit: SplashNews)

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The This Morning star became “depressed” after hiding his sexuality for so long, and said his decision to come out came as the secret was starting to “damage” him.

Phillip even sought professional counselling to help with his inner turmoil.

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Phil revealed he could have reached the darkest of places (Credit: ITV)

Speaking to The Sun on Sunday newspaper, he explained that he had poured his heart out for an hour and sobbed as he tried to figure out his way forward.

The Dancing on Ice host announced his sexuality in a candid Instagram post, which was followed by his appearance on This Morning on Friday (07.02.20) alongside his co-host Holly Willoughby.

When we got married it was a joyous time and it wasn’t a consideration in my head.

Holly said she has “never been more proud of my friend than I have today”, and read out Phil’s statement, before he reflected on how he is feeling.

He said: “It’s funny, because everyone I’ve spoken to, you, have all been so supportive, loving and caring, and my entire family, to a person, have grabbed us and said, ‘It’s OK, it’s OK. We love you, we’re proud of you.’

“Every person I tell it gets a little lighter and a little lighter. I’m really very aware that Steph and the girls are at home watching this, and we’re all together.

Holly Willoughby and Phillip Schofield on This Morning
Phillip told co-star Holly it’s getting a little easier with every person he tells (Credit: ITV)

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“We spent a lot of time together and they’ve been supporting us as we got to this moment.

“I feel a little lighter but I’m very aware there is no question it causes pain and upset. We’ve never had any secrets.”

In his only press interview with The Sun, Phillip also admitted that he knew he was gay when he got married to Steph 27 years ago.

“I’m not saying I didn’t know. Whatever was ‘there’ I thought, ‘OK, whatever this is, you stay back because I am happy’.”

“I admit I was perhaps a bit naïve,” he explained. “But when we got married it was a joyous time and it wasn’t a consideration in my head.

Now fully come to terms with his sexuality, Phillip concluded: “If you ask anyone who is gay, they know, there is no confusion.”

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