Former Girls Aloud star Sarah Harding has admitted to housemates on Celebrity Big Brother that she used to have "mini meltdowns" while rehearsing for the band's tours, and her fellow band members used to dread them.
Sarah confided in fellow CBB contestant Chad Johnson about how she wasn't as dance trained as the other members of the girl band, and used to have breakdowns backstage.
She showed Chad a tattoo she got when she was on tour with the band, which she had done to remind her to stay strong. She revealed that bandmates Cheryl, Kimberley, Nicole and Nadine used to be on edge worrying when she would have her next meltdown.
She confessed to Chad: "I got it when we were half-way through our tour rehearsals, because I’m not the strongest of the dancers.
"I wasn’t as dance trained as three of the other girls. Two of us were more singers than dancers so I used to do extra time with my routines.
"Tour rehearsals for me were so tough.
"I used to have a mini meltdown at some point during every four weeks."
She continued: "Everyone would be dreading, like, ‘Oh God, here we come, Sarah’s going to have a little meltdown when she can’t pick up the routine.'"
Sarah, 35, also revealed to Derek Acorah earlier this week that she hasn't seen or heard from one of her former bandmates for a long time, but she chose not to name who.
She said: "It’s so hard to catch up with any of them, really. Everyone has got their own thing going on. Three of them have got families now.
I used to have a mini meltdown at some point during every four weeks.
"I haven’t seen or heard from one of them for forever. I don’t know where she’s gone."
Since going into the Big Brother house many people have been worried that she isn't mentally and emotionally fit to be there, as she was seen breaking down in tears in the diary room. She also appeared to get drunk, even though she is a recovering alcoholic.
Her fellow housemates Paul Danan and Brandi Glanville put her up for eviction, after expressing worries that she was "unstable". But although she was saved from the recent eviction, she is reportedly receiving help from health professionals while she is on the show.
A source told The Sun: "Sarah is not in a great state. She's not coping with the pressure and she's paranoid about what everyone thinks of her.
"She's been spending time talking to the professional team and is being given time away from the other housemates.
"No one wants her to walk out so it's about trying to get her through these difficult times. There are real concerns, they don't want to push her too far."
Sarah burst into tears when she recently went into the diary room, as she felt betrayed by Brandi because she called her mental stability into question.
The Girls Aloud star said: "I don't know who to trust anymore.
"I'm used to being on my own, not with a large group who act like kids and are constantly told off by you guys."
She also confessed to feeling ganged up on by other housemates. She said: "I just can't deal with them and I don't know what Jemma's problem is, I've been nothing but nice to her, now all of a sudden she's completely switched on me and they're all in this [expletive] little clique.
"I had one drink in here, for [expletive] sake, and now it's all ruined because of one night.
"I tried to stay positive the whole time. They ask me what's wrong and I tell them I've had a headache for three days and I'm not used to being in an environment like this.
"I just don't feel I belong here anymore."